Vulnerability

So Far from home, just steps from my own door
Lost in my own neighborhood
Familiar ground feels strange beneath my feet
Nothing feels the way it should

I run fast, searching for a friend’s embrace
Stop to find I have none here
There is no one close to give me solace
No one near to sooth my fear

(Chorus)
     A little less than you were
     A little less here now
     Desperate desire to get back
     Thing is, you don’t know how

     Have a new ability
     To feel incapable
     To be oh, so uncertain
     Feel shaky, unstable

Walked into a wall of uncertainty
A new, scary world of doubt
Tentative, I approached as a whisper
Was responded to in shout

No one expects the floor to fall away
Your next step to be your last
Reality’s no longer real to you
Not like it was in the past

(Chorus)

A simple rhyme for a complex feeling
Doesn’t seem appropriate
To hide in words what I cannot discuss
Desperate to make sense of it

To distance myself is my self defense
“I” to “You”, kept at arms length
Not me, not me, not me, the chant refrain
Denial is my only strength

(Chorus)

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